Overload

Today I am experiencing writer's block but not in the usual way. I have so many thoughts and idea's racing through this brain of mine that I have no idea where to start. Should I do a more interactive blog post today? Should I discuss some of the blogs that I follow and why? Maybe I should discuss my new business venture as well as my couponing techniques and the benefits of both? I am totally clueless. So I am just gonna give a brief synopsis of my day and let that be that.

There are days whenever I feel as though I have accomplished nothing. It will be 4pm and I am still in my pajama's and I look around and nothing is different then it was when the kids pulled me out of bed that morning. On those days I feel empty and wonder what is going on with me. I know that there is something deeper going on when days like that occur but that topic is for another day and another blog posting.

Today was not one of those days & I am exhausted because I did a lot. But as I look around I again cannot see much change to my surroundings, probably because of the four children and husband that take up residence here. I hate days like today where I feel like I have put so much of myself into accomplishing a task to only go to bed and feel like my efforts were in vain. I spent the day tackling another stack of dishes, picking up random items that have taken up residence in random places, teaching lessons that may or may not have sunk in, talking baby talk, playing peek a boo, kissing boo boos, wiping noses, and wondering all the while if I should change my name from Mom to some name that the kids don't know. I have heard "Mom" "Mom" "Mom" more times than I can count. I have not peed in peace in years. On days like this I remind myself that this is for a season and that this season will pass all too quickly and when it does I will miss it. At this current moment I cannot see that far ahead and missing it seems unlikely.

I read a blog by a fellow blogger that discussed the shoes that we all wear in life and how we wear different shoes at different stages. If I was to describe my footwear for this season I would have to say that they are primarily flip flops but I should invest in some running shoes. I wear flip flops because they are easy to put on and require no work. I am putting on shoes of so many other's that I want simplicity when it comes to putting on my own. Today as I left for the grocery store after cooking and serving dinner I slipped into my all too familiar flip flops and thought this is where life is for me at this moment. I do not need anything complicated or fancy I just need convenience. This mindset has also taken hold of my wardrobe, my makeup, and my hairstyle. Convenience wins out.

So as I sit here with my head full of so many thoughts and random ideas spilling unto the pages of this blog I take hold of convenience and accept this phase with passion. I am the sweeper of the cheerios, the boo boo kisser, the laundry lady, the chef, the teacher, the disciplinarian, the baby talker, the voice of the latest character in their favorite book. I know that my time is not in vain and that everything I give is leaving an impression. On days like this when my work feels wasted I smile and know that one day everything sacrificed will be worth it. To all you moms out there just know that someone sees all you do and that your work is not in vain. Here is a song for all of us...

Somebody's Hero